I don’t think realizing that you were made to be an entrepreneur comes in the form of a big aha, lightbulb moment. At least that wasn’t my experience and neither was it for my business buddies. On the contrary, my experience was more of a running face first into the same wall, over and over again for years until I realized I didn’t want to have a headache anymore from the head bumping.
The most exciting journeys in life, are rarely the easiest ones.
They often involve a messy journey but the excitement of those journeys weighs so much more than the messy parts.
Entrepreneurship isn’t proposed to us when we are young in school, so it never dawned on me that I even had that option. So my journey was one of constantly trying to find this perfect box that I could fit into, that would make me feel fulfilled and happy. Every job I had was an absolute failure, my whole entire life. Let me explain in what sense…I would look at the pretty box (job), see all the potential in the advancement and success that I could have in the future, hope that it would FINALLY be MY path, then squeeze my tiny ass into that box only to suffocate and hate my life. Yes this was my pattern for over 15 years. Can I tell you that I felt broken? I could never make a job work for me. The first week would be exciting. I would give my 100% and then slowly spiral into resentment, boredom and psychopathic thoughts towards my tasks.
In my last job as an Early Childhood Educator my fingers were tightly crossed, hoping to god that I could make it work. I finished my college degree studying in this field, I was great at my job, I could get pregnant and have 2 years off per child, had a pension plan, benefits and there was a nap session every day.
I HAD to make this work.
Then slowly my tiny ass started to pour out of the box I had squeezed myself in once again. At this point I was exhausted from the constant failure in my life AND from the job that was sucking the life out of me. I adored kids, but when you are doing something that is not in line with who you are meant to become, it drains every single ounce of energy out of you. In desperation, I took my summer vacation to do an intensive Yoga Teacher Training. Yoga had saved me as a teenager when I was struggling with severe anxiety and every time I went to class, I felt a sense of purpose. I knew I was a born teacher and I loved the idea of being a mentor to people who wanted to live more fully.
Immersing myself in the only thing that made me feel like I belonged on this planet seemed like a good idea as I was on the verge of burn out.
After my teacher training, I went back to work in daycare and tried to squeeze my tiny ass back into the box and that is when I got it. No job was ever going to fulfill me. The restraints of working for someone else, on someone else’s terms is WHAT was not working my whole life. The freedom I felt during my training and the potential I saw for a future with infinite possibilities became my anchor. So I took one of the biggest leaps of my life, quit my job and thew myself into entrepreneurship.
Each entrepreneur has their own story of how they landed in the business world. What you need to know is that it’s not always a clear cut answer. It takes time to figure it out sometimes. Some people take a leap of faith like I did and throw themselves out to the sharks and others test the waters as they keep their job temporarily. You need to choose what works for you. I tend to be more drastic. When I see clearly that something is not working for me anymore, I jump and hang onto faith. Things got messy, yes but I stayed focused on the excitement of the journey ahead.
My first project after I took the leap was to build my website. I remember getting my hands into and feeling like I was beginning a journey that would change my life. Building that first website for who I was becoming and how I was going to help the world is what got everything started for me. This is why I built a Do-It-Yourself Course on How to Build Your Own WordPress Website. Being able to offer this stepping stone to help someone else follow their yearning and start their own business really made me feel like I was showing up on purpose for you all.
If you know that the entrepreneurial journey is yours to take I want you to know that I’m here, holding your hand when you leap.